Category: trauma

I asked for it

by Helena Toto, posted in ache, alone, betrayal, Consequence, Fear, hurt, Self, trauma

Would you hurt me

If I asked you to

 

Would you strip away my dignity

And undress me with your eyes

 

Let me tremble beneath

Your hungry gaze

 

Even as I covered over

My naked body with my hands

 

And sank to the cold

Bathroom floor

 

Until the tears came

And I sobbed

 

Victimized

But I asked for it, right?

 

So, you’re off the hook.

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This Game

by Helena Toto, posted in abuse, family, marriage, Poetry, relationship, trauma

You and I face each other
weapons in hand
fate tied at the wrist

And as the blood pumps and rushes
what’s left to think about?

I’m faster than you and the
blade cuts into flesh

Spilling your heart out onto the floor.

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Witness

by Helena Toto, posted in birth, child, death, life, memory, Poetry, trauma

She took you away.
To fill her head and
I held you close.

You’re crying. And I’m
dying and I don’t have
any more to give.
Except my life for you.

So remember that day when
the sky turned golden and
the earth spilled you out
into the snow.
Wet and red.

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