Tag: Dreams

What If

by Helena Toto, posted in hope, Poetry

Slowly, slowly, the trees grow

Calmly, calmly the ants gather

Gently, the breeze blows

But my mind is filled with what doesn’t matter

 

I wish I was in a different world, a different time

When my life played to a soundtrack and

My body danced freely

To the beautiful songs in my head

 

Fear would be gone

And pain diminished

In this reality of dreams

Where walking took days

 

But within that time

Entire existences were created

Giving birth to unending ease and

Excitement at life

 

Eyes shining

Boldly singing

Gypsy-like

In my new light

 

So, slowly I can grow

Calmly, I can matter

Gently, I can exist

In this world

 

Connected to the other

Questioning what’s possible

If I only believe

Goodbye

by Helena Toto, posted in death, dreams, Goodbye, hope, life, longing, Love, Paradise, peace, Poetry, sadness

We stayed on shore
As you floated past us
In your restful bed

The end wasn’t as you expected
You didn’t suffer
And we didn’t cry

But I smiled
To know that things
Would be different now

The leaves changed from pink to
Gold when the lights danced over
Them on the dark water

And my breath caught
In my throat
As your blood swirled with the tide

Salt mixing with life
Preserving it, holding it tight
Until I see you again

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Re-Do

by Helena Toto, posted in Choice, Consequence, dreams, Fear, happiness, life, Loneliness, Love, memory, Poetry

What works for me?
What pushes me to be better?
Who gets to see that part of me?
Apart from all the bull shit.

Apart from the burden I feel
Every time I wake up
The choices I’ve made
Have led me here

Have led me away from you
But in another time &
Another place
I would be with you,

Holding your hand
Smiling
Instead of sitting here
Alone, Stagnant

Trapped by what I’ve chosen
What wouldn’t I give up now
To go back and decide again
To make that defining choice, differently

To walk into the sunset with you
Instead of turning back
And choosing familiar
Over the new possible.

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Ache

by Helena Toto, posted in belief, darkness, dreams, Fear, moon, night, poem, Poetry, regret, sadness, trapped

To be continually confined,
Scratching at the high walls of my
Cell until my fingers
Bleed, with no one listening to my
Whimpers except the moon.

She’s the only one who never
Gave up – on me –
Continued to shine on –
Despite all I’ve done

I keep desperate hold on that thought
As I lay down each night to sleep –
Holding my blanket of moonbeams
As I dream of all that
Could have been.

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DigitalBlasphemy.com

Release

by Helena Toto, posted in hope, meditation, peace, Poetry

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My burdened mind
Into the now
So I’m no longer haunted
By my past

The voices that judge
The sounds that disturb
My peace
Give way to nothing

And I’m here.
For the first time in my life,
I’m really here.

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Burned

by Helena Toto, posted in aging, betrayal, dreams, Loneliness, Love, pain, Poetry

Underneath your wings
I used to lie
Breathing softly
Hidden from the world

Upon sanded beaches
Once I craved
The wind as it
Rushed onward

Up from valleys below
Caught between the realities
Sung of
In ancient lullabies

Before feeling brought
Pain and loving
Produced everything
But hate

Now I long for the
Protection and sanctification
Once given to a little child born
In the haunted memories of long ago

Ignored, though never
discarded
Living vividly
Behind an old man’s eyes

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Reverie

by Helena Toto, posted in Poetry

Soundly sleeping underneath the waves
While she is guarded from above.
What dreams come
To she so sweet,
Covered with moss and ivy?
Kidnappings and skirmishes,
Love and loss,
Or is she surrounded with a nothingness-
A blank canvas,
Content to just be,
Engulfed in the water
That has always held her tight?