I stand here in the rain
watching you run so you
don’t get your hair wet.
Such a difference
between us.
All the time-
making it seem like
there is no reason for
what I do.
But I love it.
All the droplets falling down.
It makes me believe I will wash away-
if I just stand here long enough.
I will weep
When you get
What you deserve.
I will cry out with pain
When they hit you
And spit on you
And call you names
Showing their hate
Of you,
Making you feel stupid
I will lose sleep
Waiting for you to
Come home, bruised
And beaten
So I can hold you
In my arms and
Rock you to sleep
I will know why.
What you’ve done
Is unforgivable
But you are my son
I can’t help but love
What I’ve created.
Your hand reaches out
Taking hold of my throat
Closing, closing
Choking the goodness from my lungs
Seeping, sweeping onto the floor
Crumpling down
Down I go
Losing consciousness
For a moment,
Taking me by surprise
Your words hit me
This time
Like they haven’t before
Revealing the stain of pain behind my eyes
But this is my job
To listen
To not hurt, to not react
So I deaden my eyes
Forcing a smile
Not giving myself away
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Do I write for fun?
Or when the power of words hit me?
Do I write to process, to understand
The beauty of things that surround?
Would I write if energy was freely given,
Flowing to me in a continuous
And purifying rain of words?
If the bones in my hand didn’t ache
As I typed
And my heavy head wasn’t throbbing
From buried pain?
If my day wasn’t congested with
Chores and human frailties
Could I produce
A brilliant new world?
Or would I still sit here, wilting
Creativity dripping down the
Sides of my face
Not knowing how to come back from all this madness?
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To be continually confined,
Scratching at the high walls of my
Cell until my fingers
Bleed, with no one listening to my
Whimpers except the moon.
She’s the only one who never
Gave up – on me –
Continued to shine on –
Despite all I’ve done
I keep desperate hold on that thought
As I lay down each night to sleep –
Holding my blanket of moonbeams
As I dream of all that
Could have been.
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She came to my door
Broken and shamed
Last night to explain
The unexplainable
How she rose above
The light until
She reached the
Darkness of
Your might.
It could
Be easy to
Pretend
But you
Know
That’s
Not
What
She’ll
Do.
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I press the button, but nothing happens.
She doesn’t cock her head or say hello.
Her dead eyes don’t blink and her hand doesn’t wave.
I want my money back.
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From Where She Stands 